What to do when you’re not able to get closure, to make amends, when you can’t accept or get past what you feel has been left unsaid, undone or unresolved? How can you ever be at peace? (How can the other?) How do you move forward, when closing the door on the past doesn’t seem possible?
It can be especially difficult to practice self-love and self-esteem, when distracted by the discord one might see in what appears to be happening around them (or when visited by the feeling that things seem to be moving –‘progressing’? – mind-numbingly slowly).
If someone would have told me years ago that I’d be a healer and Love helping people, that I’d see it as a Privilege, I’d have told them that they were totally and truly bat-shit crazy. Actually, I wouldn’t have told them; more likely, I’d have done something vilely, insidiously passive-aggressive towards them. It was my own preferred expression of anger that ‘didn’t look like’ anger.
Most everyone that knows me presently will find this extremely difficult to believe, but (if it isn’t obvious from that last paragraph) I used to hate people. And I didn’t discriminate, either; I hated pretty much everyone.
Did I have a ‘why’? Not that I would – or even, could – have thought about it this way at the time, but it was because everyone else needed to recognize how hurt I was, and everyone else was responsible for how I felt. They must have been. After all, I wasn’t. Right? It’s so much easier to hate other people than to admit that you hate yourself.
Our physical self is great matter for our spirit. It connects you to your experience in ways that your presupposed thoughts alone can’t. For the majority of us (not having a conscious appreciation of having experienced it before), death causes us to surrender to sensation, apart even from how our thoughts rationalize or interpret those sensations.
‘The’ truly personal journey, the expiration of our physical bodies, death inspires us to an appreciation of aspects of life we’re otherwise inclined to deny. Whether your own appears imminent, or is a long way off, ultimately, there’s no ‘thinking’ our way through it. It’s the one education that our minds can’t ‘solve’ for us, and as such, it grounds us in visceral experience.
It sets the appeal that you trust your intuition and throw the net of your awareness out into the world around you, pulling in truths that may defy your intellect, your rational mind, and what your conditioning might wish to (superficially) espouse.
If you’re in the Thunder Bay (Ontario) area tomorrow, come for a healing session with yours truly or any of the other profoundly gifted persons who’ll be offering their services there. While I’m at it, I feel I should give a shout out about the cheesecake (lactose-free, gluten-free and Yummy beyond words) 😀 !!
There’s no such thing as being a psychic individual. Why would I say that, when people describe me as psychic? Because, as an ‘individual’, it isn’t possible. Without an appreciation of my connection to the Universe /lifedream /Spirit /Nature and other souls I’m connected to, I’m no more psychic than you are. No offence…
I could just as accurately say that I’m no less psychic than you are. ‘Psychic’ is, in fact, a wholly natural condition of our Being (it’s also a Holy natural condition of our being, but that’s perhaps a topic for another post). In other words, you’re as psychic anyone. Do I have anything to back that up?
11:11, what does it ‘mean’? And the answer is (well, the answer that I have for you is): ‘different things to different people’…
I’ve heard people describe their appearance as anything from being a Divine wake-up call for oneself as a Lightworker to a message for you to make a wish. One article I read included a caution ‘not to focus on fears’ because you might manifest them. Pbblllltt! (in case you didn’t catch it, that was me blowing a raspberry!) Sounded all too much like fear addiction to me, in the same way the news celebrates dirty laundry. As immortal beings, we have nothing to fear, even from our own fears. It’s not as though if we go there we’re not capable of returning – sometimes it’s essential to our soul’s growth to go in and investigate (objectively, mind you).
To each their own journey, but from what guidance I’ve myself received, while synchronistic numbers (like 11:11) indeed are our guides’ and angels’ way of trying to get our attention, they’re often bringing attention to something we’ve been avoiding. That could be in terms of a reluctance on our part to accept an as yet unrealized Joyful way of being that we’re capable of but have been resisting for some reason (for no good reason, as the case may be;), or it could be that we’re being pointed to something we’re (at least partially) aware of but have been neglecting to ‘do’.
Assisting in illumination of your lifedream through 'soul-medicine' wisdom, dream symbolism, past-life /karmic reading and resolution, channeling, drawing as a healing medium, and energy healing. In Loving service, David 'Black Feather' Nagy