A Truth as I observe it is: some (most?) of us don’t appear to be on the wheel this time around to manifest fortune in a conventional (eg. financial) sense.
Is that a bad thing? It most likely is, if you’re listening to what the ego, conditioning, or whatever perceptual framework you want to call it has to say about it.
That being the case, what might be the soul-level reason for experiencing financial (for lack of a better word:) frustration? What’s the trade-off, the ‘Benefit’ to manifesting conditions that might for all intents and purposes breed discontent or disappointment? And how might it fit into our individual life’s Purposes?
Whether it’s money, love, or any other form of Abundance, don’t worry about what is (or isn’t) coming toyou, concentrate on what it is that you’re in a position to put out to the world (and the rest will take care of itself).
‘Because it seems I’ve been hurt or experienced such fear while living it, how can my lifedream be valuable? How can something that seems so out of balance in its presentation of grief and pain be worth anything?’
Whether it’s physical, emotional or spiritual, ‘suffering’ is a soul-level tool for (not directly providing, but) accessing information; it focuses and directs our attentions (sometimes by way of diversion).
It motivates Profound self-reflection, which in its right medicine inspires us to recognize and stand up for what we Believe in, regardless of the opinions, judgements or (dis)approval of others or our conditioned selves. With the benefit of those insights, we’re actually able to move past self-pity and cynicism, be instilled with clarity, come into alignment with our own strength and Beauty, and recognize and be motivated by our own Divine personal purpose.
At one point in this life’s journey, having quit a well-paying job with the intention of attracting /manifesting what dreams I thought I needed, I (instead?) found myself collecting cans and bottles off the beach. I’d use the return refund to buy enough rice from the bulk food bin to keep from starving (and I’d overspent, even, until the cashier took off the few cents’ credit for my having brought my own bag). It was also around that time that I’d been asked to participate in an intuitive arts festival to present the work I’d started doing as a psychic illustrator, and found twenty dollars on the sidewalk; exactly what I needed to cover the fee.
Conversely, at a time when I was heavy into a lucid dreaming practice, I sought out and dreamt winning lottery numbers. But (unfortunately?), I only dreamt that I’d woken up to write them down. After eventually waking (for ‘real’), I played the three numbers I knew for sure, as well as as many variations of what I thought I’d seen of the rest (and that I could ostensibly afford). Checking the official results after the draw date, I recognized in hindsight that the winning numbers were in fact the ones I’d originally dreamt. Go figure.
So, (after the expletives took flight,) did I loose /gain any Insights from those experiences?…
Assisting in illumination of your lifedream through 'soul-medicine' wisdom, dream symbolism, past-life /karmic reading and resolution, channeling, drawing as a healing medium, and energy healing. In Loving service, David 'Black Feather' Nagy